I've been thinking (not the first time though), that how nice it would be if I was actually emotionless. Then I wouldn't feel anything when people scold me, ignore me and whatever. I wouldn't feel scared, nervous, worried, panicky all the time. I would live through this life of mine, peacefully. I don't care about meaning of life. It's just some crap that humans came up with. Why do I have to follow the first human who thought up of this stupid 'meaning of life' crap just because I'm human? We as individuals, are nothing more than a living creature, the same as any other creature on this Earth. We feed to survive, we fight to survive, we reproduce to continue the cycle of life. Why do we make it complicated? Why do humans have to control everything? Nature has lost its beauty, living creatures have lost their homes, humans have lost control. We think that we are the master of this planet. We abuse it, torture it, rule it like it can be ruled. We are disgusting creatures that fight amongst ourselves, torture our kind, torture other species, kill others without the bat of an eye. We hurt, we lie. To the ones we love. We think we are the most clever, the strongest amongst all creatures. How wrong can humans be? We are the weakest, the most useless of all creatures. We depend on others when other creatures depend on themselves. We have nothing to protect ourselves with. We are nothing but the most useless creature on Earth.
February 2005
